LOST in transition

I lost it today.

I somehow lost it at Edwin today.

It was very scary, it was inflamed in minutes,
and over even before i could grasp what had posessed me

I just snapped. It was so easy it was scary

I couldn't believe that i had did it again

In so close proximity to the place where i hurt another so

It makes it feel so much worse

In public. For crying out loud

And there i was still trying insistently to prove that i was right

But i'm still left with a nasty temper problem

I thought that part of me was over and
buried in the sins of the past

But no this nasty temper is like a supervirus

which hides like a snivelly rat and grows stronger on

whatever that fights it
whatever that denies it
whatever that defies it

That bullish obnoxious side of me still exists

And rides roughshod over my gentle frame

So God help me